And to have someone special to be by your side is something that everyone dream about. Holding hands, bits pieces of kisses here and there, sweet words, words of 'i love you' 'i miss you' ' i want you' , who dont want that?

But to find the perfect one for you............it's hard tho.

   Breaking up with your first love is probabbly the hardest thing to face. You may act normal like nothing happen or you dont feel the heartbroken, looking so strong in front of everyone telling them that 'im okay' yet they all are a bunch of lies. Deep inside your heart it feels like somone just stab sooo deep inside the heart that the knife stays, bleeding and you die.

It hurts

But once you took the first step to a new life and journey without him, thats everything. Keep telling yourself: you deserves more, you deserves better, you are not a toy, you're done being hurt a couple of times and its time for you to see another better light . You are worth it. You worth someone who think you're worth it for them. Dont stay if you're the one holding out your hands and reach out for him but he never did that.


I probabbly will say how stupid I am for falling in love. I always told myself that he's going to be the first and the last but I guess it didnt work out like that .  But i am happy to be free frm the love i suffered from. It was rainbows and unicorns on the first moment, but I guess it didnt work out like that afterwards. Or maybe i cant understand him. Maybe this is too rush. Maybe he's not for him. Maybe i am too confident with myself. Or maybe, maybe this is how God wants to punish me for falling in love with the wrong person. Anyway i am glad that i realize that he's not for him. And to be free , freedom is everything.

I am glad that I dont stay and gives him the third chance. There's no such thing as third chance. The second chance is the last and that's everything, if he fucked that chance, go free. You deserves more, you deserves better. Be happy.

When you want to find someone, pls make sure that he's the one. Dont rush.